My baby is disappearing...

Not literally of course.

Isaac woke up yesterday morning in his typical good mood.  Blowing raspberries and playing with Scout for a few minutes.  I lay in bed listening to him and smiling.  I know that I need to get up soon because Isaac's playful coos are going to quickly turn into his "Where's my breakfast?!?" growl!  So while he is still playful, I scooped him up out of his crib.  He buried his face in my shoulder and gave me a giant, open mouth good morning kiss.  It melts my heart every time.  I pulled him away to plant a kiss on his gorgeous face and something had changed.

I swear it happened overnight.  Oh my gosh.....where did my "baby" go?  NO, NO, NOOOOOO.....I wanted to shout it out loud!  My "baby" can't be gone yet......he was just here last night when I put him to bed. 

Isaac "the baby" is disappearing...and all too quickly if you ask me.  Isaac "the toddler" is showing signs of life.  My mind flashed not too far into the future when one day I will kiss Isaac "the toddler" good night, and he will wake up Isaac "the boy".

I don't dare think past those days in the future.  I know all to well, what he will become...watching Dominic and Luke go through their phases too quickly as well.  I miss Dominic's chubby cheeks - they have been replaced with a thinner, harder, more defined jaw line already.  I miss Luke's baby soft, plump tummy and roly poly legs.  He is now sporting a mean 6 pack and well defined calf muscles.  I watch them in total amazement at wrestling practice...they are becoming "men".  Why do they have to grow so fast?  I'm pretty sure it took me much longer....but I know it went too quickly for my mom too.

When Dominic was 6 months old, I cherished these moments.  Tried to hang on to every single memory I could because I didn't know if we would ever have another child.  When Luke came along, I was almost certain we would have 1-2 more children and I was so consumed with day to day life with a 2 yr old and baby boy I didn't think much about it.  But now Isaac is different.  I know he is 99.99% our last child. (Ok God, do you hear me this time too!  The last time I said that, you roared with laughter knowing that Your plan is not our plan!).

I do want him to grow up.  But just not so fast.  So please, Isaac, do your mom a favor.  Let me see glimpses of Isaac "the baby" a few more times before he disappears forever.