Fishing

Luke was a great fisherman over the weekend. He caught 2 bluegill with a tiny little toy/child fishing pole. He was so excited because no one had caught anything but him. Of course, we orginally went fishing at the farm to get Luke a catfish.......

Dominic was getting frustrated because Luke was catching fish and he was not. So Luke let Dominic borrow the kiddy pole (and we just thought he would catch a bluegill or bass too). Dominic was about to give up when his bobber went under! We were all shocked when he pulled in this nice sized 3-4 lb catfish!

Results

The results are in the test is negative. Another cycle without a pregnancy.

15 Hours and Counting.....

Tomorrow is the day. BETA DAY. I have been having light to mild cramping on and off for several days. I have also been extremely "hot". I'm taking both as good signs that one or both embryos have settled in for the duration. I'm not trying to read too much into anything else because of the progesterone "symptoms" that have fooled me and countless others in the past.

I have been asked now by 5 different people in 2 days (none know about the FET) if I feel ok. They all say I looked tired and not myself. I'm also taking that as a good sign! I do feel exhausted but blame that on not sleeping well because I'm sooooo hot!

Only 15 more hours.........

May God Be With You

I just found out that my beloved babysitter when I was growing up (from age 5-nearly 12 years), passed away on Friday. Ruth helped raise tons of kids over the years - some hers - most not - and she will be deeply missed.

Happy Father's Day!

Here is wishing all fathers a great day today - especially my prince charming! Still hoping for even more to celebrate next year.

Beautiful

These are our beautiful Day 3 Embies. We pray they have settled in for the next 9 months.

Homecoming

We are now home with 2 of the most beautiful embyros I have ever seen. The FET went as perfectly as possible. We pray for the health and well being of these embryos.

The IF Monster

I know several pregnant women right now. Of course I tend to notice these things even more when we are in the midst of a cycle - like now. I have been invited to baby showers, etc over the years and I have a personal rule - I don't do baby showers. This is for a couple of reasons. First, I have never liked them - even before IF - but I tolerated them for family and friends. I also don't like bridal showers but that is a different subject.

Secondly - and the main reason - is that baby showers and such, take the IF Monster out of the closet. Now, there may be some IFers that can handle such events but I am not one of them. I compare it to taking a person addicted to gambling to a high stakes casino with tons of cash and telling them not to lay down one dime.

Some may think that we have conquered IF because we have two amazing boys. And in some ways, that is true. We have two miracles that we were told would never be - and for that we are eternally grateful. However, pre-IF we wanted 4-5 children - not two. For us, we have not reached the summit of our struggles.


I have attempted to explain it this way to non-IFers:

One child or 10, the Big, Bad, Infertility Monster is always lurking in the closet. Some days the door is shut tight and all is quiet. Other days, there is a crack and I can see the glow of the monster's eyes and hear a low growl. But at other times and certain situations (like baby showers) the door flings wide open and the monster comes charging out. At these moments, there is nothing I can do but wait for the IF Monster to hit me full force in the chest and pierce me straight through the heart.

So......I don't do baby showers.

Playing Ball

Dominic is loving baseball. He was 3 for 3 in his game last night - including one double. Of course no video camera last night...I would have loved to capture his giantic smile as he stood on 2nd base. In the 3rd inning, the coach had Dominic be the first baseman! Yikes! Mark helped him but afterwards Dominic said, "Wow! There is a lot going on at 1st base!"

Lining Check

My lining is doing well - however I do have some fluid/mucus in my uterus that could prove problematic. The RE said that the PIO "should" clear it up. But just in case, I will have another ultrasound on Monday before they thaw any embies. If the fluid is still there, then the FET will be cancelled for a few months until it is gone.

Our Weekend

We have had a crazy evening with weather. Dominic looked out the window and mentioned how green it looked. A few minutes later the tornado sirens were sounded. Since our near miss last year, I don't take chances. We took cover under the stairs until the sirens were silent. We heard there was a funnel cloud spotted but not on the ground.

Only one more week before our embryo homecoming! Luke keeps asking if I have baby seeds growing in my tummy yet. He knows that when I do, he has to be very gentle with me and he is just trying to be cautious. Dominic said that he thinks my tummy has already grown! Thanks for that one son...but the Lupron and estrace are not being kind - I have gained 8lbs and feel very bloated. I hope that means my lining is getting nice and thick.

Blood Work Done

I had my labs drawn on Tuesday. Everything is great. RE wanted my E2 above 250 and it is 559! While I'm glad my numbers are looking great, I am very irritable - but that is way it goes with hormones. The next step is a lining check on June 7th.