Motherhood

I was in a discussion the other day with a group of moms.  Since several are pregnant and I'm "expecting" we began talking about when we first felt like a mother.  Everyone, but me, agreed that it was sometime during the pregnancy. 

Since we have battled IF and conquered twice, I said I felt like a mother long before the pregnancy began.  My journey to becoming a mother started long before the positive pregnancy test.  I did agree that my love grew for my boys with each passing day of the pregnancy.  I was able to feel and experience the life growing within my body with each kick and roll.  But this time, I'm not experiencing the pregnancy.  I'm living it through phone calls and emails and my love for this baby grows deeper with each passing day.  I view myself as a mother of three children.  I am the mother of this baby.....already....even though the baby is not growing within me.

I have been asked what the boys think about the adoption process.  The home study case worker asked Dominic what he thought about it.  I wish I could have recorded the answer so I would have it forever in his own voice.  He said, "I just want a baby brother or sister.  I don't care if the baby grows in Mommy's tummy or H's tummy, he'll still be my brother or sister."

We love you Little One.  We are all counting down the days until you are in our arms.  I read this quote in an adoption blog and I just love it:

 Motherhood transcends biology, transcends adoption, and builds its foundation firmly upon love.